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The Reinvention of the Feminist Bookstore

Euguelionne Feminist Bookstore Staff-Montreal: (Left to Right) Nicolas ( · ) Longtin-Martel, Marie-Ève Blais, Stéphanie Dufresne, Sandrine Bourget-Lapointe

In the summer of 2015, Montreal bookseller Marie-Ève Blais noticed that Virginia Woolf’s essay A Room of One’s Own, which argues that female writers need an independent income, had been consigned to the fiction section of the bookstore where she worked. In a Facebook post, Blais decried the miscategorizing and misunderstanding of women’s literature and suggested that it was time a feminist bookstore opened in Montreal.

The idea had been circulating amongst local feminist and literary groups for a while. Literature student and feminist organizer Nicolas ( · ) Longtin-Martel had been chronicling the history of feminist bookstores in the city, while Stéphanie Dufresne, who had worked in publishing for years, had dreamt of opening a feminist publishing and printing collective that would amplify voices shut out of mainstream publishing.

Galvanized by on and offline discussions, a six-member collective was formed in mid-fall that included Blais, Longtin-Martel, and Dufresne. The collective, which had experience in feminist organizing and academia, launched a crowdfunding campaign in March 2016 and sent out a press release to local media. Much to their surprise, journalists jumped on the story, heralding the opening of Quebec’s only feminist bookstore. In just eight weeks, the campaign raised $32,500, outstripping their goal of $25,000 by 128 per cent.

L’Euguélionne, named for the alien heroine of a 1970s Quebec feminist sci-fi novel, opened in December 2016. Tucked down a side street in the Gay Village, the store stocks more than 5,000 French- and English-language books and zines, both new and used.

Some two thousand miles away in the small Mississippi town of Water Valley, University of Mississippi English professor Jaime Harker had been keeping an eye on the opening in Montreal. “I thought it was the coolest thing!” she said.

Harker, too, had been toying with the idea of opening a queer feminist bookstore inspired by the ’70s and ’80s feminist bookstores that she had been researching for a yet-to-be-published book on lesbian feminism and print culture in the American south. As a graduate student in Philadelphia, she was a regular at LGBTQ+ bookstore Giovanni’s Room, which was shuttered in 2014. She was alarmed by the dearth of queer and feminist bookstores in the country. “A lot of my students have never, ever been in any kind of feminist or queer bookstore,” she says. “They didn’t know it was possible.”

In October 2017, Harker launched her own crowdfunding campaign. In just four days, it had surpassed her modest goal of US$5,000, generating just over US$8,000. By December of that year, she had opened Violet Valley Books in a slender storefront of an old barbershop on Water Valley’s picturesque Main Street. It is the only queer and feminist bookstore in the state.

Clearly, a resurgence of sorts is in the air. Feminist bookstores have a rich history dating back to the 1970s. At one point, as many as 130 operated across Canada and the United States. For the next two decades, they pioneered new collective, cooperative business models and served as incubators for feminist and queer politics, theory, and ideas. The women at the helm supported burgeoning feminist periodicals and presses and innovated ways of categorizing and organizing feminist thought and books. The bookstores also nurtured connection and became community gathering places.

But by the mid-1990s, feminist booksellers, along with other indie and specialty stores, came under siege from big-box booksellers and online giants such as Amazon. Fighting for survival, many professionalized away from their collective, cooperative roots. The majority closed.

Now feminist bookstores appear to be making a comeback. Violet Valley Books and L’Euguélionne are the first feminist bookstores to open in North America in 15 years. Athenian is another crowdfunded bookstore soon to be open in Wilmington, North Carolina.

Two other long-established feminist bookstores have developed new business models to keep their doors open. Charis Books and More, which launched in Atlanta in 1974 and is now one of the longest operating feminist bookstores in the world, will relocate to the Decatur campus of historic women’s college Agnes Scott this spring, adding school merchandise to its stock. Venus Envy, which opened in Halifax in 1998 and Ottawa in 2001, serves its feminist and LGBTQ+ clientele by offering books alongside an education-orientated sex shop.

It Takes More than Books to Make a Feminist Bookstore

To survive in a new online world, this most recent incarnation of feminist bookstores is developing both new – and old – ways of building a loyal customer base.

On a quiet weekday afternoon in Montreal’s L’Euguélionne bookstore, a dozen women from the Centre d’éducation et d’action des femmes (CEAF), a community organization that has fought for women’s economic and social empowerment for nearly 50 years, meet for a workshop hosted­ by the bookstore staff. When a staff member lists the different sections of the bookstore’s collection, a lively discussion ensues about what it means to be queer, non-binary, and gender fluid – new terms for some of the older women, many of whom were active in the city’s feminist movement in the 1970s and 1980s. Staff pass around relevant zines and books. As the event wraps up, many women purchase books from L’Euguélionne’s used selection (priced at an accessible $5 and under for this event) while others ask for books to be set aside until they can return after their next pay day.

Another event aimed to break traditional approaches to the taboo topic of eating disorders. The bookstore invited authors who had written stories about experiencing eating disorders to talk at a roundtable. By inviting those with first-hand experiences to speak, the discussion avoided narratives that victimized. Moreover, other attendees felt safer sharing their own stories in an explicitly feminist environment. “When you come here, you aren’t judged, you are accepted,” says Dufresne. “By making our values explicit and out there, it encourages people to be mindful.”

To build and retain its customer base, Venus Envy in Ottawa also hosts regular workshops and community events. In one month, events included a workshop on how to talk to kids about porn and a book launch for a new series about trans teenagers by Montreal author and cartoonist Sophie Labelle. The store’s highly trained staff are constantly interacting with customers, offering advice on topics such as healing from sexual assault to mismatched sex drives or anything that might be asked of them. Venus Envy’s shop owner, Sam Whittle, says offering such support is part of the store’s core values. “Financially we don’t gain anything from talking to someone for 45 minutes when they aren’t going to buy anything, but we do it every time,” she says.

Venus Envy Bookstore, Ottawa and Halifax

Whittle worked at the store for five years prior to becoming the owner, and her time on the store floor – in particular, the in-depth questions she’d field about sex, trauma, and healing – inspired her to pursue a master’s degree in social work. Just as she was finishing her degree, the owner was looking to sell. “It seemed like the perfect opportunity for me,” she says. “I love that we can have conversations with people in the store who will still come here but might never go see a therapist, and that I can also expand on the support and education side of things, the workshops, groups, and other more structured endeavours.” She now manages a staff of seven.

Charis Books and More also hosts events through a non-profit programming arm called Charis Circle, which organizes events like book launches, a race-conscious parenting group, and a trans youth group. Events have a suggested donation, most often in the range of US$5 to $20, but no one is turned away. Co-owner Sara Luce Look, who has worked at the store since 1994, says these gatherings are not just about bookselling but community building. “We are a public, feminist space open seven days a week; you can come in to browse, hang out, have a cup of tea, attend programs, get information,” she says.

Violet Valley has also made providing a space for community part of its mission. According to owner Jaime Harker, that became especially important when what’s been called the “the most anti-LGBT law in America” came into effect in Mississippi last October. HB 1523 allows public officials and businesses to deny services to LGBTQ+ people based on their personal religious beliefs. Support and donations for her store flowed in as people welcomed a “space where you can go and discover things and just feel accepted.”

Feminist Booksellers Operate a Little Differently

To run L’Euguélionne, the founding members established a non-profit solidarity cooperative, which means there is no private ownership; rather, the store is owned by a three-tiered membership base. The six co-founders, who also staff the store, are “worker members” while some 2,300 customers who pay a one-time $10 fee to support the store are “user members.” Individuals, organizations, and university departments can become “supporter members” by paying up to $200. Currently, these include Université du Québec à Montréal’s Institute of Feminist Research and Studies and the Quebec Lesbian Network. All members are entitled to one vote and a voice at the annual general meeting where decisions are made about the year ahead. Last fall, about 50 members attended.

The worker members chose a non-hierarchical, not-for-profit, multi-stakeholder cooperative model as the team wanted the business to outlive their own involvement. Moreover, the structure reduces “the power relations that exist within the organization and especially in the bookstore as a workplace,” says Dufresne.

But having six worker members managing the bookstore makes L’Euguélionne’s weekly operations meetings a little more time-consuming. These take place for half a day every Monday when the store is closed. The six make decisions as a collective, always aiming to reach a consensus on topics such as staff rotations, what books to stock, and how to respond to new partnership requests. As well, they pay attention to how they are operating as a team. Who is taking up space in discussions? Who is taking the lead in various areas? Each meeting has a “check-in” and “check-out” phase where the collective comments on the dynamics of the meeting itself, how they handled agenda items, and whether people felt there was tension. For sensitive and potentially divisive topics, the collective elects a “mood watcher” who monitors the atmosphere and intervenes to name dynamics she observes.

Six-way decision-making is demanding and takes extra time, diplomacy, and energy. But Dufresne says it builds and solidifies trust — in each other and their project. Co-founder Karine Rosso agrees, adding that the non-hierarchical business structure also enriches the bookstore’s stock and events programming. “We are six women who have different networks, who have different visions of feminism,” she says, adding that it’s also a welcome reprieve from the vertical structure of academia that she navigates as a PhD candidate and lecturer at the University of Sherbrooke.

A major challenge the collective constantly grapples with is making the bookstore economically sustainable. In addition to raising money from their crowdfunding campaign and member fees, L’Euguélionne received a $10,000 grant from PME Montreal, a government-backed organization that supports private sector and social economy startup ventures. This grant made them eligible for a $30,000 loan from Réseau d’investissement social du Québec (RISQ). La Caisse d’économie solidaire Desjardins, which partners with RISQ, gave them an extra $3,300 to complement the loan.

Still, the bookstore can’t afford to pay all six founding members a living wage. “We can’t support everyone full-time,” says Dufresne. “So we switch it up.” Who will get full-time hours is also discussed at weekly staff meetings.

Dufresne is hopeful that the bookstore can offer full-time employment to all worker members in the near future. “It’s important that our cooperative is run by people who can fully invest because they don’t have to have another job,” she says. When they can hire extra staff, they will prioritize women, LGBTQ+, and racialized folk as they already do so with contractors. (Venus Envy also prioritizes queer, trans, and people of colour in its hiring practices.)

Dufrensne says that surviving on book sales alone would be “ideal” but in the short term, the collective will actively look into government subsidies for social enterprises to improve pay conditions and expand their community outreach and events programming.

Violet Valley registered as a 501c3 non-profit, which means all donations the store receives are tax deductible. More than 90 per cent of the bookstore’s 2,000-strong collection is donated, both by publishers and individuals who send an eclectic range from lesbian mysteries to hardback literary fiction to history.

Violet Valley Bookstore, Water Valley, Mississippi

Just one month into operations, book sales covered expenses, which include rent, internet, a security system, electricity, and insurance. Harker says about $3,000 in Kickstarter money will go to buying books over the next six months while she keeps the remaining crowdfunding money “sitting in a savings account as a six-month emergency fund.” This February, Harker hopes to hire a paid bookseller one day a week but currently the store is not generating enough income to pay staff.

It is open only on Fridays and Saturdays to accommodate Harker’s work schedule as she depends on her full-time salary at the University of Mississippi. Volunteers also pitch in to help staff the store.

Venus Envy follows a more typical business model as a for-profit venture owned by Whittle. While the sex toys bankroll the business, Whittle says the book side is crucial, “because knowledge is key to having a great and healthy sex life.” The store stocks a wide range — erotica, books about sex, feminist fiction, and queer, feminist, and anti-racist theory — or as Whittle describes it, “things that are conscious of the way that sex and women are represented in the mainstream – things that flip power structures.”

Venus Envy also developed a charitable offshoot, creating a Bursary Fund to support women and trans people working towards a degree, diploma, or certificate in any subject; they also have a Pay It Forward program that raises money to give out binders and gaffs (shapewear for trans people) in store for free. Pay It Forward is funded entirely by community donations, both online and in store. The Bursary Fund is funded by community donations, although the store pays for fundraising events.

Charis Books and More is also a for-profit business, but shares the cost of rent and utilities with its non-profit programming arm, Charis Circle, 90 per cent of which is individually donor funded. “We intentionally seek funding only from sources who explicitly value the work we do and who don’t want to shape our programming to their missions,” says E.R Anderson, Charis Circle’s executive director. The other 10 per cent comes from family foundations located in the south who support free thought and feminist, queer, and anti-racist spaces.

Charis Books, Atlanta, Georgia (The oldest feminist bookstore in the Southern US region)

Still, even with Charis Circle’s connections, the bookstore has been struggling to remain viable, which necessitated the move onto the campus of Agnes Scott where the bookstore will benefit from foot traffic and additional sales of school merchandise. It’s a way “to stay alive as a feminist bookstore in this generation,” says Look, who is the only full-timer amongst a staff of six. “We have been in survivor mode for so long.” Still, she says while wages are low, staff turnover is rare. “People who work here, work here for a very long time, or leave and come back.”

Harker is hopeful that the resurgence of feminist bookstores will not end here. As she believes the “outpouring of love” for her initiative has demonstrated, in the current political climate “people are looking for ways to build communities of support” — like feminist bookstores. Moreover, she believes the recent upsurge of interest in feminism is also likely to fuel interest for curated feminist spaces. “For a long time, it was easier for me to teach classes on LGBTQ+ literature than feminist literature, students resisted it. But that’s changed now,” she says.

Over in Atlanta, Look says business has been up since Trump’s election and the women’s marches in early 2016. “People are finding us again,” she says. “They are hungry to be in a place that they can see their lives reflected, and does programming, and is about change.”

Harker has encouraged all those who have asked for work in her store to start their own initiative, and hopes that the very existence of Violet Valley will inspire others, just as she was moved by the Montrealers. “Let’s make this a kind of larger network of support where people in little towns have spaces where they never could imagine, where they can suddenly see a future for themselves.”


Recommended Reads from Feminist Bookstores

Recommended by Stéphanie Dufresne of L’Euguélionne:

The Feminist Bookstore Movement: Lesbian Antiracism and Feminist Accountability by Kristen Hogan

Kristen Hogan worked at the Toronto Women’s Bookstore. In this book, she documents the whole history of the feminist bookstore movement. It’s absolutely fascinating and it talks at length about the different models that were created for feminist bookstores over time. It was extremely helpful for us while setting up L’Euguélionne.

Recommended by Sara Luce Look & E.R Anderson of Charis Books and More:

Your Money or Your Life: 9 Steps to Transforming Your Relationship with Money and Achieving Financial Independence by Vicki Robin and Joseph Dominguez

This is, in many ways, the Bible of reluctant capitalists, beleaguered booksellers, and mission-driven enterprises. The authors help you define your work and your relationship to money in terms of your life — literally your time in hours on this earth. When you consider your economic decisions through the lens of your life’s trajectory, it is easier to understand how to include meaningful work and not simply define yourself by how much you make or by others’ notions of a successful career. As feminist booksellers with a radical social justice mission, it’s helpful to remember that there are many ways to be rich and one of them is doing the work you believe you were put on this earth to do.

Bonus Recommendation: Emergent Strategy: Shaping Change, Changing Worlds by adrienne maree brown

Recommended by Jaime Harker of Violet Valley:

Girl Meets Boy by Ali Smith

The novel combines complex, delightful adolescent girls as narrators, interesting formal experimentation that is accessible, and a feminist take on Ovid’s Metamorphoses. Smith is exploring genderqueer identities without the jargon, and she brings generosity, playfulness, and wisdom to everything she writes. I am smitten by her; not only is she a great lesbian novelist, but she is the most interesting person writing in English today, period.

For me, feminism is about envisioning utopian spaces – spaces of freedom, creativity, and safety – that activists then try to translate in the real world. Art is central to women’s liberation, because it liberates your mind, first, and lets you believe in a better and more feminist world. Writers like Ali Smith remind us of the pleasures of language, the importance of empathy, and the continuities of the past in our present and future, and I think keeping that vision alive sustains us as we do the often unglamorous work of fundraising, organizing, and working out the details.

Recommended by Sam Whittle of Venus Envy:

Daring Greatly by Brené Brown

I know personally, I have a tendency to be overly concerned about what other people think, and I think that’s true for many women who are entrepreneurs. I love this book because it gives you the tools to hear and honour legitimate feedback about your business’ impact, while letting the petty criticisms just slide off your back. It’s helped me to take more risks and be okay with making mistakes, and I think those things are crucial to running a successful business.


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Savoy “Kapow” Howe Outside The Ring: Part Two

Savoy Howe in the ring.

Savoy “Kapow” Howe is the owner of Canada’s first woman-owned boxing club for women and transgender people. Toronto Newsgirls Boxing Club is a sole proprietorship with 12 volunteer coaches and 250 members. In 2007, Howe worked with Brock University professor Cathy Van Ingen to develop the Shape Your Life program, offering free boxing to hundreds of survivors of violence at her gym. In Part Two of this two-part interview, Carmelle Wolfson spoke to Howe about Shape Your Life, coaching people with disabilities in her gym, and making the space more trans-inclusive. You can read Part One here.


CW: How did the Shape Your Life program for survivors of violence get started?

SH: That started when one of my students who happened to be a professor at Brock took one of my boxing camps. After the camp she said, “Savoy, what you’re doing is incredible. Would you consider doing this for survivors of violence?” I mean, I was already doing it for survivors of violence, but she wanted to have a program specifically for that. So we got our first two-year grant from the Attorney General’s Victim Services Unit and that helped us set up the program in 2007.

Shape Your Life isn’t offered here anymore. It ended in April. They decided to take a new turn and moved to the west end to the Bloor Street Boxing & Fitness Club. I always say crisis equals opportunity or when one door closes another opens. So we’ve decided to do something like Shape Your Life, but upgrade it a bit.

The program we are starting is called Outside the Ring. Our goal with that is to give two four-month memberships each month to four different communities: Indigenous, new Canadians, LGBTQ2S, and people with mobility issues. It’s all based on donations. The four-month membership will allow them to come as much as they want, and then who knows? If our fundraising goes well, if they want to keep going, maybe we’ll be able to give them another four-month membership. It’s hard when you give somebody a membership with a run-out date and they really want to keep going but the funds aren’t there. How can you kick somebody out just because of money, especially if it’s having an effect on their lives? So we do a lot for free. Even with Shape Your Life, we gave away over $10,000 worth of boxing to graduates.

CW: Have you had many people with mobility issues doing boxing?

SH: For a boxing club, yeah. We’ve done a workshop for 10 people with mobility issues. Then some of those became regular members. In the past few years we’ve had about five people who happen to use wheelchairs. We’ve had a visually impaired woman box with us. That was so much fun to figure out how to do because I love inventing. When you work with people in wheelchairs, you have to invent things. How can they do abs? Okay, you put rubber bands with a strap behind them and they pull away.

CW: How did you develop that training for people in wheelchairs?

SH: I came up with a lot of it. I worked for 16 years as an attendant to a woman who was a quadriplegic. She was an advocate for people with disabilities, so we travelled all over Canada and the States. She would present at conferences and I would be her attendant. She said, “Savoy, if you ever open a boxing gym, it has to be wheelchair accessible.” So that’s why we made sure speed bag racks are height adjustable, double-end balls are height adjustable. There are a couple heavy bags at the height where somebody in a wheelchair can get under them and get close enough to punch. I’ve just been working with people with disabilities for a long time. When I understand their limitations, we just figure ways to strengthen what they can use. Like I said, I love inventing. So give me a situation and I’ll figure it out.

The gal who is visually impaired, with shadow boxing she would take up lots of space, lots of footwork. The worst thing that was going to happen in the ring was she was going to touch a rope. She loved it because in life she’s always so careful with her stick. In there, she could just fly around and touch rope. When she was done she’d say “Savoy” and I’d come get her. She’d take me by the elbow and I’d give her stick to her. Often, people would be looking at her going, “Is she blind?” They had no idea she was blind because she loves to move. And she’s good. Just another thing that we invent that works and it’s good for her.

CW: How do you think a boxing club run by a woman is different than one run by a man?

SH: My priority with Newsgirls is to create a safe space. Safe? What do you mean? It’s boxing! But I mean a safe space so that people who might not normally come into a boxing gym will come here. Usually when people come here, they’re pretty nervous. But within the first hour they get a sense that this is different. Nobody is judging me. Nobody is doing anything that is scary to me. We just make sure it’s a really safe environment so that everybody can come in, including the trans community.

I spent 14 years in men’s gyms. You walk in there and you’re walking into a mist of male aggression. I think that’s really important for men because you’ve got to be willing to deal with your fears in a male-aggression way. If a guy walks into a male gym and he can’t handle the male aggression, he should be willing to get used to it, adapt to it. A lot of women walk into that environment and are like, “Nope, not for me.” Some of them might stay and have to slap knuckles and tell the men, “Don’t touch me.” Then they might leave. Some women will stay. They’ll fall so in love with the heavy bag that they’ll be like, “No, I’m going to be here whatever it takes.” It’s just a totally different environment. Male aggression is so different than female aggression. Well, I always call it female, healthy aggression.

You wouldn’t see that male aggression in here. When my fighters are getting ready for a fight, I will take them to other gyms so that they can see what that is like. It just keeps them a little bit safer in the ring because a lot of the women that are going to be competing against my gals are coming from male-dominated clubs.

As far as running the business, I have no idea. I have no idea how the owner kept the gym alive. He was charging people $40/month, month-to-month. You can’t survive that way because half the time people don’t pay you. You need a wee bit more of a commitment from people. But that’s boxing. A lot of gyms charged their members $40/month in the old days up until 10 years ago.

CW: Do you have any rules of conduct to make it a safer space?

SH: We have a trans inclusion policy, which you can find on our website. I am looking forward to looking at the code of conduct from a friend at a martial arts studio to see if that’s something I should have in place. But we haven’t got many problems. People get the vibe when they’re here that they’re not to disrespect anybody.

CW: What have you done towards trans inclusion and how has that approach evolved?

SH: When a few of my boxers transitioned, I wanted to still be able to provide a place for them to box. When we moved over here, that was when I was like, “Okay, let’s have one night where it’s co-ed.” Then the women would go home and tell their husbands, “Oh my God, it’s so much fun.” And the husbands were like, “Hey, we want in.” By that time, some of our trans athletes were saying, “If I ever wanted to train for a fight, how? I can’t. Once a week isn’t enough.” So then we opened it twice a week, and eventually three times a week.

Before we moved here, one of my athletes came to me and said, “Savoy, I’d like to compete.” I said, “Okay.” She said, “But I have something to tell you. I was born a man.” I was like, “Oh okay, I don’t know how this works. Let me call Boxing Ontario.” And they said they follow International Olympic Committee rules, and if these things have happened around IDs, hormones, and surgery, you’re good to go. So she fought the first bout for a trans woman athlete in boxing in Canada, as far as we know.

That’s when we started doing more outreach. Some of my boxers transitioned. We came here. We put a trans policy in place, and we started doing outreach through Shape Your Life. Any time we had new dates, we’d send it to the 519 Community Centre and Sherbourne Health Centre. I think it was mostly by word of mouth after that. Anytime I have a chance to talk to media, I always mention that so that anyone reading the article will know.

CW: Is there anything else you’d like to add?

SH: As a business owner, one of the cool things about trying to keep a place like this alive is it forces me to be really creative at the end of the month. Like, how can we come up with this amount of money in under a week? It forces me to invent things out of necessity. Some of the things we invent become a huge part of what we do.

The most recent thing we invented was called the one-two combo. It’s boxing for moms and their 10-to-13-year-old daughters. We just did the pilot of it, getting it ready for when kids are back in school. I’ll work with the adults. I have a coach who will work with the kids. We’ll work at the same time separately, and then for the last half hour we’ll bring everybody back together to do some bonding between the moms and their daughters. We’ll do an eight-week session and we’ll see how it goes. I think it’s going to work. I think parents are ready to have their little daughters in something like boxing, just with how the world is going.

And the same with Outside the Ring. Shape Your Life pulls out, takes their funding with them, and it’s like, “Holy shit. What are we going to do?” So I just do lots of writing. That’s how I solve things. I would think of what the best-case scenario would be. What if we have another new and exciting program that has a similar feel, but maybe serves a different population? How are we going to fund it? I have no idea. What if I could get a certain amount of people that would donate $5/month and we’ll call them Newsgirls Sugar Mamas? We include all genders, so Sugar Mamas/Glucose Guardians. It reignites a certain excitement about being an inventor.


For more information on becoming a Sugar Mama/Glucose Guardian donor, visit the Newsgirls website.

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Savoy "Kapow" Howe Outside The Ring: Part Two

Savoy Howe in the ring.


Savoy “Kapow” Howe is the owner of Canada’s first woman-owned boxing club for women and transgender people. Toronto Newsgirls Boxing Club is a sole proprietorship with 12 volunteer coaches and 250 members. In 2007, Howe worked with Brock University professor Cathy Van Ingen to develop the Shape Your Life program, offering free boxing to hundreds of survivors of violence at her gym. In Part Two of this two-part interview, Carmelle Wolfson spoke to Howe about Shape Your Life, coaching people with disabilities in her gym, and making the space more trans-inclusive. You can read Part One here.


CW: How did the Shape Your Life program for survivors of violence get started?
SH: That started when one of my students who happened to be a professor at Brock took one of my boxing camps. After the camp she said, “Savoy, what you’re doing is incredible. Would you consider doing this for survivors of violence?” I mean, I was already doing it for survivors of violence, but she wanted to have a program specifically for that. So we got our first two-year grant from the Attorney General’s Victim Services Unit and that helped us set up the program in 2007.
Shape Your Life isn’t offered here anymore. It ended in April. They decided to take a new turn and moved to the west end to the Bloor Street Boxing & Fitness Club. I always say crisis equals opportunity or when one door closes another opens. So we’ve decided to do something like Shape Your Life, but upgrade it a bit.
The program we are starting is called Outside the Ring. Our goal with that is to give two four-month memberships each month to four different communities: Indigenous, new Canadians, LGBTQ2S, and people with mobility issues. It’s all based on donations. The four-month membership will allow them to come as much as they want, and then who knows? If our fundraising goes well, if they want to keep going, maybe we’ll be able to give them another four-month membership. It’s hard when you give somebody a membership with a run-out date and they really want to keep going but the funds aren’t there. How can you kick somebody out just because of money, especially if it’s having an effect on their lives? So we do a lot for free. Even with Shape Your Life, we gave away over $10,000 worth of boxing to graduates.
CW: Have you had many people with mobility issues doing boxing?
SH: For a boxing club, yeah. We’ve done a workshop for 10 people with mobility issues. Then some of those became regular members. In the past few years we’ve had about five people who happen to use wheelchairs. We’ve had a visually impaired woman box with us. That was so much fun to figure out how to do because I love inventing. When you work with people in wheelchairs, you have to invent things. How can they do abs? Okay, you put rubber bands with a strap behind them and they pull away.
CW: How did you develop that training for people in wheelchairs?
SH: I came up with a lot of it. I worked for 16 years as an attendant to a woman who was a quadriplegic. She was an advocate for people with disabilities, so we travelled all over Canada and the States. She would present at conferences and I would be her attendant. She said, “Savoy, if you ever open a boxing gym, it has to be wheelchair accessible.” So that’s why we made sure speed bag racks are height adjustable, double-end balls are height adjustable. There are a couple heavy bags at the height where somebody in a wheelchair can get under them and get close enough to punch. I’ve just been working with people with disabilities for a long time. When I understand their limitations, we just figure ways to strengthen what they can use. Like I said, I love inventing. So give me a situation and I’ll figure it out.
The gal who is visually impaired, with shadow boxing she would take up lots of space, lots of footwork. The worst thing that was going to happen in the ring was she was going to touch a rope. She loved it because in life she’s always so careful with her stick. In there, she could just fly around and touch rope. When she was done she’d say “Savoy” and I’d come get her. She’d take me by the elbow and I’d give her stick to her. Often, people would be looking at her going, “Is she blind?” They had no idea she was blind because she loves to move. And she’s good. Just another thing that we invent that works and it’s good for her.
CW: How do you think a boxing club run by a woman is different than one run by a man?
SH: My priority with Newsgirls is to create a safe space. Safe? What do you mean? It’s boxing! But I mean a safe space so that people who might not normally come into a boxing gym will come here. Usually when people come here, they’re pretty nervous. But within the first hour they get a sense that this is different. Nobody is judging me. Nobody is doing anything that is scary to me. We just make sure it’s a really safe environment so that everybody can come in, including the trans community.

I spent 14 years in men’s gyms. You walk in there and you’re walking into a mist of male aggression. I think that’s really important for men because you’ve got to be willing to deal with your fears in a male-aggression way. If a guy walks into a male gym and he can’t handle the male aggression, he should be willing to get used to it, adapt to it. A lot of women walk into that environment and are like, “Nope, not for me.” Some of them might stay and have to slap knuckles and tell the men, “Don’t touch me.” Then they might leave. Some women will stay. They’ll fall so in love with the heavy bag that they’ll be like, “No, I’m going to be here whatever it takes.” It’s just a totally different environment. Male aggression is so different than female aggression. Well, I always call it female, healthy aggression.
You wouldn’t see that male aggression in here. When my fighters are getting ready for a fight, I will take them to other gyms so that they can see what that is like. It just keeps them a little bit safer in the ring because a lot of the women that are going to be competing against my gals are coming from male-dominated clubs.
As far as running the business, I have no idea. I have no idea how the owner kept the gym alive. He was charging people $40/month, month-to-month. You can’t survive that way because half the time people don’t pay you. You need a wee bit more of a commitment from people. But that’s boxing. A lot of gyms charged their members $40/month in the old days up until 10 years ago.
CW: Do you have any rules of conduct to make it a safer space?
SH: We have a trans inclusion policy, which you can find on our website. I am looking forward to looking at the code of conduct from a friend at a martial arts studio to see if that’s something I should have in place. But we haven’t got many problems. People get the vibe when they’re here that they’re not to disrespect anybody.
CW: What have you done towards trans inclusion and how has that approach evolved?
SH: When a few of my boxers transitioned, I wanted to still be able to provide a place for them to box. When we moved over here, that was when I was like, “Okay, let’s have one night where it’s co-ed.” Then the women would go home and tell their husbands, “Oh my God, it’s so much fun.” And the husbands were like, “Hey, we want in.” By that time, some of our trans athletes were saying, “If I ever wanted to train for a fight, how? I can’t. Once a week isn’t enough.” So then we opened it twice a week, and eventually three times a week.
Before we moved here, one of my athletes came to me and said, “Savoy, I’d like to compete.” I said, “Okay.” She said, “But I have something to tell you. I was born a man.” I was like, “Oh okay, I don’t know how this works. Let me call Boxing Ontario.” And they said they follow International Olympic Committee rules, and if these things have happened around IDs, hormones, and surgery, you’re good to go. So she fought the first bout for a trans woman athlete in boxing in Canada, as far as we know.
That’s when we started doing more outreach. Some of my boxers transitioned. We came here. We put a trans policy in place, and we started doing outreach through Shape Your Life. Any time we had new dates, we’d send it to the 519 Community Centre and Sherbourne Health Centre. I think it was mostly by word of mouth after that. Anytime I have a chance to talk to media, I always mention that so that anyone reading the article will know.
CW: Is there anything else you’d like to add?
SH: As a business owner, one of the cool things about trying to keep a place like this alive is it forces me to be really creative at the end of the month. Like, how can we come up with this amount of money in under a week? It forces me to invent things out of necessity. Some of the things we invent become a huge part of what we do.
The most recent thing we invented was called the one-two combo. It’s boxing for moms and their 10-to-13-year-old daughters. We just did the pilot of it, getting it ready for when kids are back in school. I’ll work with the adults. I have a coach who will work with the kids. We’ll work at the same time separately, and then for the last half hour we’ll bring everybody back together to do some bonding between the moms and their daughters. We’ll do an eight-week session and we’ll see how it goes. I think it’s going to work. I think parents are ready to have their little daughters in something like boxing, just with how the world is going.
And the same with Outside the Ring. Shape Your Life pulls out, takes their funding with them, and it’s like, “Holy shit. What are we going to do?” So I just do lots of writing. That’s how I solve things. I would think of what the best-case scenario would be. What if we have another new and exciting program that has a similar feel, but maybe serves a different population? How are we going to fund it? I have no idea. What if I could get a certain amount of people that would donate $5/month and we’ll call them Newsgirls Sugar Mamas? We include all genders, so Sugar Mamas/Glucose Guardians. It reignites a certain excitement about being an inventor.


For more information on becoming a Sugar Mama/Glucose Guardian donor, visit the Newsgirls website.

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Want Change? Put a Woman in the Ring On It-The Story of Savoy “Kapow” Howe, Part One

 

Savoy “Kapow” Howe, Toronto Newsgirls Boxing Club

Savoy “Kapow” Howe may challenge your definition of success as an entrepreneur. While she is not earning anything close to a six-figure-salary (her business is struggling to stay afloat), she has accomplished a tremendous amount in terms of women’s empowerment. As the owner of Canada’s first woman-owned boxing club for women and transgender people, she has trained women with mobility issues and visual impairments in her gym. Toronto Newsgirls Boxing Club is a sole proprietorship with 12 volunteer coaches and 250 members. In 2007, Howe developed, along with Brock University professor Cathy Van Ingen, the Shape Your Life program, offering free boxing to hundreds of survivors of violence at her gym. The Newsgirls have shown up at the Toronto Dyke March, the Women’s March on Washington, and in newspapers around the world, and they have successfully faced off against men’s rights activist Roosh V. 

Howe’s one-woman show, Newsgirl, runs at the Toronto Newsgirls Boxing Club from September 21 to September 24. Carmelle Wolfson spoke to Howe about her experiences as a boxing coach and a business owner.

This is part one of a two-part interview. The interview has been edited for length and clarity.


 

CW: Tell me about how Newsgirls got started.

SH: I came to Toronto to pound the pavement as a performer, never ever thinking about getting into boxing. I came from New Brunswick, did my theatre degree in Hamilton, and then moved to Toronto. At the same time, I was coming out of the closet. Thirty years ago there were lots of stories of gay-bashing. I wasn’t one to walk around scared but that was the first time that something was starting to make me fearful. I thought, “Nope, I got to find something so that I don’t have to be afraid.” I tried an aikido class and taekwondo class, but it didn’t really grab me. Then one day I saw an image of a woman wearing boxing gloves in the newspaper and I was like, “Whatever that is!” It was almost like a big light bulb went off.

I walked into a guys’ boxing club called the Toronto Newsboys. That was in ’92, and I had my first fight with them in ’93, and I was still trying to pound the pavement as a performer. As most performers lived in poverty, I was trying to figure out how to pay the rent and I really didn’t want to waitress. I thought, “Huh, I wonder if I could convince a few people to pay me to teach them how to box.” So every Saturday I put up posters up and down Church Street and Parliament Street in the queer community that said “Boxing for Women.” Within a couple months I had 40 women. So I asked the Newsboys if I could use the gym when it was closed, and I rented the space and started running women’s-only classes.

CW: How long had you been boxing at that point?

SH: Two years. I started teaching in ’94. And then in ’96 I left Newsboys.

CW: What was the motivation to leave and get your own space?

SH: Well, I never really thought about having my own space. Our club was still surviving month-to-month because we had to pay rent. I left Newsboys because Newsboys picked up a different flavour, and it wasn’t exactly a safe place for me to be bringing my clients. So I headed for the west end and rented space in a gym called Sully’s. I started going in two nights a week with people who wanted to compete so that they could see the men’s environment, they could see the sparring. And we stayed with Sully’s for eight years. Still, I never thought about having my own space because it’s not a money-making business. But when Sully’s decided to move to a smaller space in 2006, it didn’t make sense for us to go with them because by that time we kind of had it with the boys and didn’t want to move into a smaller space. So it was either go big or go home.

So we did a PATH, which is a big goal-setting adventure. I invited about 15 of the gals down. A PATH is something I’ve been doing for about 15 years. It’s a process taught to me by Judith Snow, who was an advocate for people with disabilities. We put a great big piece of paper on the wall and we started in the dreaming section. I said, “If we could have anything, what would that look like?” And what came up was: a big space close to the TTC, showers, kitchen, an official-sized boxing ring, international travel, a competitive program, and a disco ball. Then we created first steps towards that. One of the first steps was to have a realtor show me a couple spaces. I went along with it, knowing that it wasn’t going to go anywhere because I had $200 in my pocket. But I thought, “Let’s play the game.”

He showed me a couple spaces, and then I met him at Carlaw and Gerrard. As we walked by the back alley, I heard the train go by over my head and thought, “Oh my God, that’s like Gleason’s in New York.” Their gym is below a train track and when I was there and heard the train, I thought, “Oh, that’s so cool. It makes it feel like a boxing ring.” So when I heard the train at this place, I was like, “Oh my God, is that a sign?” He kicked open the back two doors and we walked into this massive empty space with dust on every surface possible. I saw the steel beams and said, “Oh my God. This is it. This is, like, my dream space.” He said, “I’ll be showing it to three other people this afternoon,” and I said, “I’ll take it.” I signed up for a five-year lease and wrote him a cheque for two months’ rent of $9,000—with $200 in my bank account.

CW: How did that work out?

SH: I went home. I had a shot of whiskey. And I sat up all night going, “What the fuck was I thinking? I’m going to jail. I’m going to friggin’ jail. I don’t have $9,000!” It was on a Friday and I spent the whole weekend on the phone: “$20? I’ll take it! $50? I’ll take it! Oh, $500? Thank you!” I just did that all weekend. And by Monday, the cheque went through.

CW: So you raised $9,000 in one weekend?

SH: Yeah. Because I had a lot of students by that point, and a lot of people who loved Newsgirls who really supported what we were all about. I still can’t believe it. We got the set of keys on October 1, and we spent the next month dusting, cleaning, painting, and I had two heavy bags. No lockers, nothing. There were no walls anywhere. Just floor. I hung two heavy bags and I started selling. I said, “The gym is open!” [Laughs] And they came. They friggin’ came. We’re in our 21st year of Newsgirls and October 1 will be our 11th year in our own gym, and I still can’t believe it!

CW: Was raising that $9,000 in one weekend the biggest challenge you have faced?

SH: No. We’ve been surviving month-to-month for over 20 years. At the end of every month it’s kind of like, “Okay, now what do we do?” So I’m kind of used to it. I’m actually really good at it. I’m not a businesswoman. I mean, I’ve been a business owner for 20 years, but I’ve never wanted to be a business owner. I just wanted to be a coach. And the only way I can be a coach is to have a roof over our heads. So it forced me to learn to be a business owner, and I’m not even the best business owner, but I love my job.

CW: As someone who doesn’t come from a business background, did you have to teach yourself?

SH: Absolutely. And there’s still so much I don’t know. Because I am so focused on teaching my students and getting my competitors ready for fights that I’m not even thinking like a businessperson. I just take the cash, put it in an envelope, count it four days before the end of the month and go, “Holy shit. We’re $900 short. Let’s figure out how to sell a couple yearly memberships on sale.” I’m still not a good businessperson. It’s not my dream to be a good businessperson. My dream is just to keep doing what I’m doing.

CW: Have you learned any lessons about business along the way?

SH: Keep receipts. I think in my sixth year, I sat down with somebody and we went through two big hockey bags of receipts trying to get out of a tax mess. When we found out how much we owed, it was hell. So I would say, learn how to either become a businessperson before you open a business or take somebody on that knows how to run a business and let them run your business. Now I know how to, for the most part, stay legal, so I do it. But I’d rather be doing something else.

CW: Have you considered hiring someone to run the business side of things?

SH: I think I’m getting to the point where in my 21st year, maybe it’s time. I just don’t know who that would be, what kind of skills I’m looking for, because I’m pretty much the boss of myself. So it would be hard to have somebody telling me what to do. But if I can meet somebody who got it, understood what goes on here, who could take that on, that would be great.


Publisher’s Note: Watch out for Part Two of this article on September 26. And if you like what you read about this enterprise, note that they are looking for donors (they call them Sugar Mamas). Even as little as $5/month will help. 

For more information on Newsgirl the play, go to: http://www.soulo.ca/newsgirl/. Limited run from Sept. 21 to 24 at the boxing club. Tickets are $20 in advance and $25 at the door.


Related Article: Toronto Newsgirls Boxing Club on the ropes, but optimistic, by Joanna Lavoie (Inside Toronto, Aug. 22, 2017)

Punching Bag Therapy, by Carmelle Wolfson,

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Want Change? Put a Woman in the Ring On It-The Story of Savoy "Kapow" Howe, Part One

 

Savoy “Kapow” Howe, Toronto Newsgirls Boxing Club


Savoy “Kapow” Howe may challenge your definition of success as an entrepreneur. While she is not earning anything close to a six-figure-salary (her business is struggling to stay afloat), she has accomplished a tremendous amount in terms of women’s empowerment. As the owner of Canada’s first woman-owned boxing club for women and transgender people, she has trained women with mobility issues and visual impairments in her gym. Toronto Newsgirls Boxing Club is a sole proprietorship with 12 volunteer coaches and 250 members. In 2007, Howe developed, along with Brock University professor Cathy Van Ingen, the Shape Your Life program, offering free boxing to hundreds of survivors of violence at her gym. The Newsgirls have shown up at the Toronto Dyke March, the Women’s March on Washington, and in newspapers around the world, and they have successfully faced off against men’s rights activist Roosh V. 
Howe’s one-woman show, Newsgirl, runs at the Toronto Newsgirls Boxing Club from September 21 to September 24. Carmelle Wolfson spoke to Howe about her experiences as a boxing coach and a business owner.
This is part one of a two-part interview. The interview has been edited for length and clarity.


 
CW: Tell me about how Newsgirls got started.
SH: I came to Toronto to pound the pavement as a performer, never ever thinking about getting into boxing. I came from New Brunswick, did my theatre degree in Hamilton, and then moved to Toronto. At the same time, I was coming out of the closet. Thirty years ago there were lots of stories of gay-bashing. I wasn’t one to walk around scared but that was the first time that something was starting to make me fearful. I thought, “Nope, I got to find something so that I don’t have to be afraid.” I tried an aikido class and taekwondo class, but it didn’t really grab me. Then one day I saw an image of a woman wearing boxing gloves in the newspaper and I was like, “Whatever that is!” It was almost like a big light bulb went off.
I walked into a guys’ boxing club called the Toronto Newsboys. That was in ’92, and I had my first fight with them in ’93, and I was still trying to pound the pavement as a performer. As most performers lived in poverty, I was trying to figure out how to pay the rent and I really didn’t want to waitress. I thought, “Huh, I wonder if I could convince a few people to pay me to teach them how to box.” So every Saturday I put up posters up and down Church Street and Parliament Street in the queer community that said “Boxing for Women.” Within a couple months I had 40 women. So I asked the Newsboys if I could use the gym when it was closed, and I rented the space and started running women’s-only classes.
CW: How long had you been boxing at that point?
SH: Two years. I started teaching in ’94. And then in ’96 I left Newsboys.
CW: What was the motivation to leave and get your own space?
SH: Well, I never really thought about having my own space. Our club was still surviving month-to-month because we had to pay rent. I left Newsboys because Newsboys picked up a different flavour, and it wasn’t exactly a safe place for me to be bringing my clients. So I headed for the west end and rented space in a gym called Sully’s. I started going in two nights a week with people who wanted to compete so that they could see the men’s environment, they could see the sparring. And we stayed with Sully’s for eight years. Still, I never thought about having my own space because it’s not a money-making business. But when Sully’s decided to move to a smaller space in 2006, it didn’t make sense for us to go with them because by that time we kind of had it with the boys and didn’t want to move into a smaller space. So it was either go big or go home.
So we did a PATH, which is a big goal-setting adventure. I invited about 15 of the gals down. A PATH is something I’ve been doing for about 15 years. It’s a process taught to me by Judith Snow, who was an advocate for people with disabilities. We put a great big piece of paper on the wall and we started in the dreaming section. I said, “If we could have anything, what would that look like?” And what came up was: a big space close to the TTC, showers, kitchen, an official-sized boxing ring, international travel, a competitive program, and a disco ball. Then we created first steps towards that. One of the first steps was to have a realtor show me a couple spaces. I went along with it, knowing that it wasn’t going to go anywhere because I had $200 in my pocket. But I thought, “Let’s play the game.”
He showed me a couple spaces, and then I met him at Carlaw and Gerrard. As we walked by the back alley, I heard the train go by over my head and thought, “Oh my God, that’s like Gleason’s in New York.” Their gym is below a train track and when I was there and heard the train, I thought, “Oh, that’s so cool. It makes it feel like a boxing ring.” So when I heard the train at this place, I was like, “Oh my God, is that a sign?” He kicked open the back two doors and we walked into this massive empty space with dust on every surface possible. I saw the steel beams and said, “Oh my God. This is it. This is, like, my dream space.” He said, “I’ll be showing it to three other people this afternoon,” and I said, “I’ll take it.” I signed up for a five-year lease and wrote him a cheque for two months’ rent of $9,000—with $200 in my bank account.
CW: How did that work out?
SH: I went home. I had a shot of whiskey. And I sat up all night going, “What the fuck was I thinking? I’m going to jail. I’m going to friggin’ jail. I don’t have $9,000!” It was on a Friday and I spent the whole weekend on the phone: “$20? I’ll take it! $50? I’ll take it! Oh, $500? Thank you!” I just did that all weekend. And by Monday, the cheque went through.
CW: So you raised $9,000 in one weekend?
SH: Yeah. Because I had a lot of students by that point, and a lot of people who loved Newsgirls who really supported what we were all about. I still can’t believe it. We got the set of keys on October 1, and we spent the next month dusting, cleaning, painting, and I had two heavy bags. No lockers, nothing. There were no walls anywhere. Just floor. I hung two heavy bags and I started selling. I said, “The gym is open!” [Laughs] And they came. They friggin’ came. We’re in our 21st year of Newsgirls and October 1 will be our 11th year in our own gym, and I still can’t believe it!
CW: Was raising that $9,000 in one weekend the biggest challenge you have faced?
SH: No. We’ve been surviving month-to-month for over 20 years. At the end of every month it’s kind of like, “Okay, now what do we do?” So I’m kind of used to it. I’m actually really good at it. I’m not a businesswoman. I mean, I’ve been a business owner for 20 years, but I’ve never wanted to be a business owner. I just wanted to be a coach. And the only way I can be a coach is to have a roof over our heads. So it forced me to learn to be a business owner, and I’m not even the best business owner, but I love my job.
CW: As someone who doesn’t come from a business background, did you have to teach yourself?
SH: Absolutely. And there’s still so much I don’t know. Because I am so focused on teaching my students and getting my competitors ready for fights that I’m not even thinking like a businessperson. I just take the cash, put it in an envelope, count it four days before the end of the month and go, “Holy shit. We’re $900 short. Let’s figure out how to sell a couple yearly memberships on sale.” I’m still not a good businessperson. It’s not my dream to be a good businessperson. My dream is just to keep doing what I’m doing.
CW: Have you learned any lessons about business along the way?
SH: Keep receipts. I think in my sixth year, I sat down with somebody and we went through two big hockey bags of receipts trying to get out of a tax mess. When we found out how much we owed, it was hell. So I would say, learn how to either become a businessperson before you open a business or take somebody on that knows how to run a business and let them run your business. Now I know how to, for the most part, stay legal, so I do it. But I’d rather be doing something else.
CW: Have you considered hiring someone to run the business side of things?
SH: I think I’m getting to the point where in my 21st year, maybe it’s time. I just don’t know who that would be, what kind of skills I’m looking for, because I’m pretty much the boss of myself. So it would be hard to have somebody telling me what to do. But if I can meet somebody who got it, understood what goes on here, who could take that on, that would be great.


Publisher’s Note: Watch out for Part Two of this article on September 26. And if you like what you read about this enterprise, note that they are looking for donors (they call them Sugar Mamas). Even as little as $5/month will help. 
For more information on Newsgirl the play, go to: http://www.soulo.ca/newsgirl/. Limited run from Sept. 21 to 24 at the boxing club. Tickets are $20 in advance and $25 at the door.


Related Article: Toronto Newsgirls Boxing Club on the ropes, but optimistic, by Joanna Lavoie (Inside Toronto, Aug. 22, 2017)
Punching Bag Therapy, by Carmelle Wolfson,

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The Collective Silencing of Living Colour

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I love to change my hairstyle and colour—often. But I can’t say this has served me well professionally.

In 1985, at the age of 23, I showed up for my first day at work with an Annie Lennox–inspired platinum blonde pixie. When I picked up the keys to the company car, my boss didn’t say much. But she told me later that she almost fired me. She said, “When I interviewed you two weeks ago, you were a Dorothy Hamill brunette!”

Back then, the boyish cut and rock-star colour were considered extreme, and the image scared her. She thought she had hired a crazy person.

I was actually surprised to learn this. She was only a few years older than me.

To me, my hair colour makeover demonstrated commitment to the job. It was my way of showing they had hired someone with courage. The empowering new ‘do made me feel like electricity was coursing through my veins, that I was setting myself up for success.

Before the ‘do, I was all nerves, scared to death of driving all over Ontario alone in a white station wagon selling school books by putting on “Rosie the Raccoon” puppet shows. How would I ever meet my first-ever sales target? I was terrified I would fail. So between the interview and my first day, I suited up in my Wonder Woman warrior gear.

Within a year, I was recognized as a top salesperson and was promoted soon after. Years and several dye changes later, my former boss would often tell our story from the podium at business conferences, about how she took a chance on a colourful a.k.a. “unconventional” person, and how it all worked out.

The Unconventionals?

These days, it doesn’t take much to be labeled as unconventional or a risky bet, especially if you are a woman in business or worse, a female entrepreneur.

Oftentimes the “marker” is the mere use of a little colour. Throughout history, women wearing red lipstick were troublemakers, including Cleopatra, and 1920’s suffragettes. In the 1970s, baby blue eyeshadow was the makeup of choice for liberated women.

And while more and more people over time began using colourful paint on their faces (and today, increasingly colour tattoos) as an act of self-expression or individuality, it continued to invite considerable disdain. Take for example Ian Thomas’s 1973 hit song, Painted Ladies. Just like in the 1800’s, women who “painted” their faces were still assumed to be sex workers:

“Ooh ooh feeling fine mama

Painted ladies and a bottle of wine mama

Ooh ooh feeing good mama

They took my money like I knew they would

Interestingly, the use of colour doesn’t just invite negative character judgments on women. It has been a problem for houses, too.

In San Francisco, historic Victorian and Edwardian houses painted in bright colours (below) attracted media vitriol in 1963 for being gaudy and uncouth. They were nicknamed “painted ladies” and it kicked off a house painting “colourist movement” in the psychedelic ’60s.

 

Today, these Victorian houses with their “crazy” colours are still OMG-rogue enough to draw in tons of tourists.

Our discomfort with colour extends into the deepest corners of our psyches. We often refer to jokes inappropriate for some audiences as “off-colour.” And people considered a bit strange are labeled as “colourful” personalities. Swearing is referred to as “colourful” language.

And while we see a lot of people with pink cotton candy hair and navy blue lips these days on the streets, you don’t see them around the board table, in C-suite photos, or typical business conferences (see below).

(This picture is of a lecture taking place for dress-for-success code compliant MBA students at Rotman School of Management, Oct 2017. )

So what is going on with our collective—and the patriarchy’s—relationship with colour? Why is the use of colour, especially on the body, silenced by much of society?

I think we know the answer. It lies in the fact that we have historically associated the use or appearance of stand out colour with challenges to social order, rebellions, and even war. It evokes fear. And it often means change is coming.

Given where we are today, that’s a good thing.

From my perspective, the use of colour or “paint” for self-expression says one is confident and comfortable with their individuality, and most importantly, indicates a person’s capacity and much-needed pluck to question dominant narratives so that we might create new ones that serve us better in the emerging world.

Multi-colour pixel highlights? Full-colour sleeve tattoos? Amy Winehouse purple eyeliner? Blue lipstick at work? I say bring it.


Additional readinghttps://www.inc.com/magazine/201710/maria-aspan/blackline-therese-tucker.html